Anatomy. I Hate It. So Much.

I'm supposed to be studying the pelvic wall right now, but I can't stand it and need a break. Unfortunately, I don't think I'm even a quarter of the way through the lecture and I'm starting to wish that I payed attention in class for this one. Yet the reason that I have difficulty paying attention in the first place is the same reason why I am not studying right now - I simply hate this subject! So much! Ironic, right, since my future profession is centered on knowledge of the human body. Maybe it's the way anatomy is taught at my school, or maybe it's the fact that I don't care for this subject. It's so cut and dry, so meh meh meh, know this border, know that ligament, know every God damn artery and vein known to mankind!

I have 3 main problems with anatomy:
1. I never took an anatomy or physiology class in undergrad. You bet that I'm crying tears of deep regret and sorrow for that oversight.
2. I'm not a visual person. I can't see this stuff in my head, I can't form 3D images, I can't see relations easily. But don't worry, I have no intention of becoming anyone's future surgeon.
3. It's literally like trying to learn a new language. Maybe that's why I am so resentful - it's so much memorization of so many new words that I've never heard before in my life.

Unfortunately, I don't have the luxury of blowing anatomy off since it's a part of every block for this year. But I will grudgingly study, complete with heavy sighs and many regrets for having chosen this path. Or maybe I will try to be interested in this, if only to maximize my studying.

Hahahahahaha. Interested in this. Not likely, when I have to know every freaking border, connection, innervation, vasculature of every muscle of the pelvic wall. Especially uninterested since anatomy of this excruciating detailed level will not be tested on the boards, nor carry any relevancy into my medical specialty of choice.

Oh, medical school. Times like this make me question every big decision I've ever made in my miserable life...

And this doesn't even touch on my pure loathing toward gross anatomy!